Isaiah 43:18-19

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.  See I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; 

do you perceive it?  I am making a way in the wilderness 

and streams in the wasteland.

She had inner demons that she was battling for nineteen years, she felt like a victim of her own self-destruction and others'.  Though she displayed such outer beauty, there was nothing but Turmoil and Chaos on the inside.  At times, she was like a BOMB ready to explode at any minute.  She held it all inside and on her shoulders, carrying all that weight by herself, not trusting in GOD to carry it for her because she had lost trust in anyone or anything for such a long time that the enemy made her believe  that it was impossible to let go of all the past and look towards a BRIGHT future filled with Faith, Hope, Love, Grace and most of all MERCY from her Almighty Father.  But GOD always makes what seems impossible in our eyes, POSSIBLE in HIS.