​Romans 1:28

​And even as they did not like to retain GOD in their knowledge, GOD gave them over to

a REPROBATE MIND, to do those things which are not convenient.

She conditioned herself to depend on her addictions to protect her, love her and care for her. In her twisted head, Drugs, alcohol and lust, and the enemy were her only companions, the only ones she felt who understood her. She could be herself, never have to hide who she was, but she actually was hiding not herself but her scars; her sins never judged her, yelled at her, ridiculed her or hurt her, so she thought. She let her fears, pain, anger, hurt, failures and disappointments get the best of her. Couldn't stand looking at herself in the mirror, especially through her children's eyes; she felt useless and worthless to everyone around her. Drugs and Alcohol Abuse made her oblivious to what she was really showing to the world. She thought everyone saw her as the Life of the party, care-free girl, but some people can see right through the entire mess and see the lost, damaged, confused and deterioration of a soul. She thought there was no hope in sight, that no one could hear her cry for help, that she was all alone in the wilderness with no chance of ever being found. Oh but when you seem so far from getting help or so deep in the dark hole that you have to literally claw your way out, that is when GOD shines his light the BRIGHTEST and guides the way home. Its never too late and you are never too deep in the Darkness for him to LIGHT your way.

JUST CRY OUT TO JESUS!